sunday picnic

18 March 2007
[4]




Group projects have their pros and cons. The cons include plenty of time spent accomplishing outlandish aims, such as the filming of videos and the rehearsal of skits, and being stuck with irritating or incompetent group members if you're really unlucky. The pros are the opportunities to go to interesting places and do interesting stuff while you're at it, all the name of work. My group project for Southeast-Asian studies, fortunately, has more of the pros than the cons. The project is on tree worship and sacred trees in Singapore, and we chose to film a video about our search. I guess my idea of going to "interesting places" and doing "interesting stuff" includes walking around cemeteries and looking for tree altars and hoping some eerie stuff pops up along the way.

Even if it means getting up at the unearthly hour of 8 am for a morning road trip.

This is Chris, looking out the window at something not resembling a headless ghost or a bloodstained monster. Basically, Nigel and I spend the entire day deliberately making suggestions along the lines of exploring haunted houses or commencing filming at the graveyard in the evening, with the purpose of attempting to freak her out. While we do not really come close, her tremulous responses to our evil suggestions are a constant source of amusement. I personally do not believe in divine retribution. Yet.

First stop: Changi Village.

In the wilderness near an army barracks, there are supposedly fig and frangipani trees bunched together. This is supposed to signify the presence of many spirits in the area.

We drove to the empty land near the barracks and got down on foot to search.


This is not a fig tree, and this is not a frangipani tree either. But it's a foreboding-looking tree, so just whack.

We were told that if a concrete stone lies on top of this hump on the ground, then a bomoh placed it there to trap an evil spirit inside the hump. We did not enquire what would happen if we moved the concrete stone, though. And I was not interested at all in finding out first-hand.

There were humps on the grass patches, all around the area. Each with a concrete stone on it.

This place rocks (pun seriously not intended).

There's even an abandoned house here! It once belonged to the British Royal Engineers, constructed 1931.



Peering through the broken glass, I half-expected a face to jump out at me.


Sadako's living quarters.

Faded blood? Nah.

Nigel: "Eisen, let's go inside and take a look."
Eisen: "Ok."
Chris [big smile]: "I'll just stay here with Ben. You two can go in and explore all you want."
Eisen: "Search for our bloodied, headless bodies if we don't come back within ten minutes."

Empty room. Nothing inside. I think.


We saw this in one of the second-floor rooms. Don't ask me what went on here.

A room with collapsed headboards.

Lo and behold! After half an hour of searching we did find the fig and frangipani trees. Even more amazingly, it was a fig tree INTERTWINED with a frangipani tree. The find was almost too amazing. We half-expected not to find anything at all. And this is the crowning glory at the foot of the tree(s):

A Chinese shrine. Bingo!

Second stop: Jin Long Si Temple, Upper Paya Lebar.

In the temple grounds, there is a hundred-year-old Bodhi tree, of the species that Buddha attained enlightenment while sitting under.

The search was simple enough. There it is, as expected.

Third stop: Track 14, Chua Chu Kang Cemetery.

My favourite part of the trip.

Apparently, there are two areas of interest: A banana grove, where spirits supposedly reside, and a large sacred tree, where visitors to the cemetery usually go to pay their respects to.

The road sign, ominously knocked over.

Hi everyone...

Fortunately, we chanced upon a middle-aged man in construction boots and attire, digging away at an abandoned grave site along the fringes of the cemetery. We asked him if he could lead us to the tree or the banana grove. He gazed at us quizzically for a short while and agreed.

He started walking THROUGH the densely-packed cemetery, up the gently-inclining hill, and we had to take our outmost care not to step on any graves while following his quick, sure footsteps.



We walked past grave after grave after grave. Around them, past them. Tiny monochrome faces stared out at us, some smiling, some stony, some even scowling. All of them lay down in the ground, silent, walking for eternity to come. And the five of us just walked on, like how the rest of time marches on, silently, uncaringly.

After ten minutes of trekking, we found our sacred tree.

A shrine set up there paid homage to the Tree God.

After the man led us to the shrine we quizzed him about the tree and the shrine briefly before he walked off, back down the hill.

By this time, it was about 2 pm in the afternoon. We were at the top of a forested hill. Graves spread out in front of us in the hundreds. The weather was really hot and humid and I was dehydrated and sweating very profusely. I had to squint continuously. I could not see very clearly into the distance. If something were to happen I would not be able to react very quickly, if at all. But nothing happened.

Modernity lies somewhere off in the distance...

Eisen: "Why is this grave cracked?"
Nigel [peers at it for a short while]: "I don't know."
Eisen: "Maybe the occupant inside wanted to get out."
Nigel: "I could see a little bit of the inside. It's hollow."
Eisen: "Oh, ok. Problem solved. The occupant inside already got out."
Nigel: "Ha."
Eisen: "Maybe it's somewhere around us now, and it wants to say hi."
Chris: "Whatever!"

["Whatever" = "Could you shut the fuck up while we're in the middle of Chua Chu Kang cemetery"]


sunday picnic

18 March 2007
[4]


surrealistic poets

18 April 2007



"Mayakovsky was really fashionable for his time, in the 1920s... He wore these really cool-looking caps on his clean-shaven head. And he bore this smothering, intense gaze." He turns to look at me. "Just like you. You kind of look like him, you know."

under the scissors

04 April 2007



Cheap cut with Lao Fu Zi comics to boot. Wonderful.

dawn breaks

04 April 2007



dawn breaks
the first sober morning rays dissipate
the inebriation of the night before
and empty skies are finished
with yesterday's downpour
blow-dried highways run clean again
with no trace or stains of the past
as memories are swept away
from the beginnings to the very last

alphabetical orders

30 March 2007



But when the realization finally hits you there and then that you are now a university student together with all the trappings of hellish homework, remote research, pernicious papers, murderous mid-terms, lascivious lovers, broken hearts, award-winning novels, late nights, rabid rumours and cranky (not to mention fucking loud) hostel neighbours, you will have all of three seconds to fully reconcile this thought with your rainsoaked peanut of a brain and your battered trainwreck of a soul before you go utterly insane.

eavesdrop

27 March 2007



J: "Does she wear dark eyeliner?"
Eisen: "How the hell did you know?"
J: "Girls with dark personalities usually wear dark eyeliner."

biography

23 March 2007



After lunch with my American classmate today I have decided to prepare, mentally, a biography to introduce myself once I'm in the US.



it was a warm and quiet night you were lying there by my side...

death revised

19 March 2007



I will somehow buy a cyanide pill soon. Keep it hidden somewhere in a drawer. I don't want concerned-looking people shoving crap in my face by telling me that they can't end my life when I'm half-dead with cancer one day.

sunday picnic

18 March 2007



Eisen: "Why is this grave cracked?"
Nigel [peers at it for a short while]: "I don't know."
Eisen: "Maybe the occupant inside wanted to get out."
Nigel: "I could see a little bit of the inside. It's hollow."
Eisen: "Oh, ok. Problem solved. The occupant inside already got out."
Nigel: "Ha."
Eisen: "Maybe it's somewhere around us now, and it wants to say hi."
Chris: "Whatever!"

an open letter

17 March 2007



Sadness is part and parcel of life, I am just glad you're around when it happens.

honesty

15 March 2007



Why don't I have faith? Can't I come back to God? Wrong. Free of the church, I feel closer to God than ever. And I think of Him, everyday, before I sleep, when I wake. I look at the wondrous world outside and I thank Him for making me a part of this amazing universe.

worth

07 March 2007



words lost in misty spaces ideas wrapped in tracing paper kisses spread on mutual skin time concealed in tightly-clenched fists

aggrandizement

07 March 2007



The world continues to spin nonetheless on its own cruel axis but holes must be dug, etches must be made, envelopes must be pushed. I want to push mine but I must push others too. Creation, liberation, destruction. These are processes that must be done at the right times and at the right places. The times are approaching, the places are arriving. Mine, and hers, too.

a few hundred words

02 March 2007



The streets look pretty and bright when it's raining during the evening. This is when I don't want the ride to ever end.

cold day

01 March 2007



Existentialism, yes, but Christian existentialism? No pun intended, but God! It's funny. I question God to no end but I never question Love.